Do you ever have those times when you fall into a funk? Something happens or maybe something doesn’t
happen, but somehow you fall into this state of being where your world doesn’t
feel like it used to.
And you desperately want to get back to normal (whatever the
heck that is or was).
But as you try to figure out how to get back to normal, you
have no idea what to do to get back there because you don’t even know exactly
it was or why things got un-normal.
You do things in your routine like you normally would. You eat good food. You exercise.
You hang out with and talk with good people who you trust. You try to do those things that usually made
you normal.
But nothing seems to work.
Then you come to realize that so much has changed that you
fear what was once normal will never be normal again. What was once that comfortable state, where
you had things figured out, where it wasn’t always perfect but at least you
understood things…you knew who you were and what your purpose was…that “normal”
is no longer even remotely possible.
There are times when you realize that life doesn’t always
bring you down the path of least resistance.
When you can’t take the easy way out.
When what you are meant to do isn’t what you thought you wanted. There are times when people need you to do
and be what you’d prefer not to. When
God needs you to do the really hard work.
When God wants you to grow and be more than you thought you could
be. When God asks you to trust. When God asks you to be the person God meant
you to be even though it requires sacrifice and patience and perseverance and lots
of other virtues you would rather not practice.
Now is one of those times.
Usually when I write, I gain some perspective on the
experiences I’m writing about as I write.
Through writing things become clearer for me and I find the words to
express what is going on in the chaos of my mind and my soul. There have been many times when I have a moment
of insight and I’m able to understand whatever circumstance I’m writing about
and I’m able to sum it up in a clear way with a tidy conclusion.
Now is not one of those times.
